2/17/20 It was the end of my 3-day weekend and I didn’t feel stressed. The day went. I woke up slow, let the day glide, and enjoyed the morning. Amelia & I arrived at her class around 8:50am, just in time for breakfast. We sat together & she ate peaches & cheerios. We washed ourContinue reading “Celestial Paperwork”
2/11/20 I told jokes again. It went well. I used the same set from last week, but rearranged it a little to change the flow. The audience responded well to it, which is always nice. It’s very satisfying when the audience trusts you because you can trust them, too.
2/7/20 Marie lost her engagement ring. Technically she has (as of my writing this) lost two. I bought her two rings—an engagement, and a replacement for an older one—when I went out. She took them off last night to shower and forgot to put them on. When I awoke the silver one (the non-engagement ring)Continue reading “Rings”
2/3/20 During the simple cadence of the evening I find peace in the discordance. Amelia’s shrieks—refusal to brush her pearly whites—mixed with the heater’s hum fills me with a simple luxury: homeliness. I know the walls of our apartment don’t shine gold. I know the structure of our abode isn’t built upon sapphire stones orContinue reading “Universal Blue”
2/2/20 Does the cycle end or begin on Sunday? It’s technically part of the weekend and is, indeed, “the week’s end.” But on a standard calendar Sunday begins at the start of the week. Perhaps it is at the beginning of the week because, in Christianity at least, it is a holy day. It’s theContinue reading “Sunday Cycle”
1/31/20 It is very late/very early when I write this. Alexander, our cat, wouldn’t shut the fuck up but I am starting to think he knew I hadn’t written my diary yet. You know what they say: a dog is human’s best friend, & a cat is human’s best frenemy. I love my cat, yetContinue reading “Nightlight”
1/30/20 I did it! I went and did stand up at a place off broadway & 18th. I’ve been there before but tonight went really well! I got pretty solid laughs. It was soul fulfilling. An odd thing did happen: I tried to join in a group of people I kind of knew outside, butContinue reading “Stood Up”
1/29/20 I wonder if there’ll ever be a day where I won’t know what to write. When I think about it I know the truth of the matter is that that will be okey dokey. I meant to write ok but put an “e” after the “k” and was too lazy to scratch it outContinue reading “Okey-Dokey”
1/28/20 Today was a Tuesday. By far and away the oddest and least inspiring day of the week is Tuesday. Not to say Tuesday’s are bad days. Indeed, Tuesday nights are rather spectacular. Because it’s closer to Wednesday than it is to Monday, and because the universe gets silly on Tuesday nights.
1/26/20 Sometimes I wonder what I’ll actually remember from a day. At times I feel my emotions are eclipsed by an inescapable feeling of emptiness; that my actions are grains of sand on a desert planet. But with that I am reminded it only takes one more straw to break a back; it only takesContinue reading “Simplicity”
1/25/20 Today was a lovely day. I woke up early, went back to sleep, and enjoyed waking up slow. I awoke in a way that felt natural. Black mold (non-toxic) grows in our bathroom because even though we pay $1400/month for rent our landlords can’t bother to install a fan to help with humidity. IContinue reading “Calliope”
1/24/20 With very little regret I am here to tell you I drank again tonight. 750mL of tequila was only $11.00 at Safeway so I figured I might as well kill myself a little quicker. It is 9:07pm right now and I have consumed at least 3 tequila sunrises. That’s a lot of day. IContinue reading “1-24-20”
1/22/20 I am writing early tonight (now vs. later). When I got home the apartment smelled like shit litter. I hate the smell. It is pervading. I cleaned Alexander’s litter box, took some trash out, brushed my teeth, walked to the store for new, superior cat litter, and walked home.
1/21/20 Amelia & Marie woke up with me this morning. It was the earliest I’ve gotten up in weeks. I was late to work again but that’s because I dropped Amelia off at school. She is older so she got to go to a new class. Marie’s face/tooth did not hurt as much today. ThatContinue reading “1-21-20”
1/20/20 It was a Monday. Marie was awake when I got up because her mouth hurt so much. I took her car to work so she could go to her parents & then the dentists. It was a normal day for me. I got frustrated working on website/domain stuff because I’m trying to take thisContinue reading “1-20-20”