Continue Along

9-15-23

It was a god damn long day.

Marie’s parents went out of town for a wedding so I watched the kids by myself today. I did it while working, and that was kinda stressful. I can do my work great by myself, and I can watch the kids great by myself, but together it is now a total handful.

It’s definitely a mixture of a different workload, but also a different routine with the kids. I don’t have a desk to work at at this house, and Marie’s parents feel “uncomfortable” if I sit in the room for too long, so I have to use this shitty little black foldable chair. It makes it so I’m sitting further away from my computer and having to lean over. I detest it.

Beyond that Amelia isn’t in school for as long so she was home the later half of the day, which meant I had to cater to two kids while still hitting my deadlines. It all got done, but I just felt so drained, especially since I had to put the screen on to help.

Emerson has been attached to my hip lately. I love it, and I love him, but it does become nuisance when I have to work. I think it’s because he doesn’t have all his toys around, and the space is different, but definitely not as child friendly. So, he can’t do all that much without my having to intervene. I really missed out apartment today.

On top of that Marie didn’t leave until like an hour after she clocked out of work. I thought she was going to run errands on her lunch break but she did it after work. It wouldn’t be so bad on most days, but she went and bought stuff, and she’s super indecisive, so I know she wasted a whole bunch of time second guessing.

I got a little miffed with her. Upset is maybe a little better way of putting it. I don’t know. I guess I wanted her to anticipate my needs a bit more having to work and watch the kids all day. On top of all that she said there was really bad traffic, so she didn’t end up getting home until 7:30 pm. It was a long ass day.

I think I was really upset because the one night we had to be by ourselves with our kids was cut short, and I kinda soured it by being grumpy. I think I was justified in being upset because her forty-five minute delay turned into an hour and a half, or so. We did play a board game with Amelia, so there was at least that.

It was just another day of setting expectations and not handling it well when they weren’t met. Something to work on as we continue along.

Love you Emerson, Amelia, mom, dad, sis, kitty, Marie

-E.B.